You know how on Twitter, there's this thing now that shows you people you should follow? Well today I looked at Shaycarl's one, as I've heard his name a thousand times and had literally no idea who he was. He had this video on his page that was sponsored by footlocker and was really awesome. Well filmed, well put together... I liked it.
I don't think it's how other people react to things, but whenever I see someone doing well and succeeding in a field I have any experience in (whatever it is, art, design, youtube), it completely demoralises me. I think other people feel inspired by seeing others do well in their fields of interest, but not me. It makes me want to give up and not ever try again. It's pathetic, but rather than feel happy for those people, I feel jealous and angry with myself for not being as good as them.
That's why I never try hard in anything, never really bother to push myself, because there's always someone else out there who is way better than me at whatever it is I could ever try to do. And if you can't be great, why try at all? It's so stupid, I know. I know! But I can't help myself- this is why I never watch youtube videos anymore, because they just depress me. It all depresses me.