Thursday, August 19, 2010

Is it still August?

You know how on Twitter, there's this thing now that shows you people you should follow? Well today I looked at Shaycarl's one, as I've heard his name a thousand times and had literally no idea who he was. He had this video on his page that was sponsored by footlocker and was really awesome. Well filmed, well put together... I liked it.

I don't think it's how other people react to things, but whenever I see someone doing well and succeeding in a field I have any experience in (whatever it is, art, design, youtube), it completely demoralises me. I think other people feel inspired by seeing others do well in their fields of interest, but not me. It makes me want to give up and not ever try again. It's pathetic, but rather than feel happy for those people, I feel jealous and angry with myself for not being as good as them.

That's why I never try hard in anything, never really bother to push myself, because there's always someone else out there who is way better than me at whatever it is I could ever try to do. And if you can't be great, why try at all? It's so stupid, I know. I know! But I can't help myself- this is why I never watch youtube videos anymore, because they just depress me. It all depresses me.

16 comments:

NusaCat said...

But there are people who are far more depressed than you are! You'll never be that good at depression...give it up!

Danny Pettry said...

Bryony – you’re still alive and you deserve a good kick in the butt for having such a pity city.
You want to know a depressing place?
It is the GRAVEYARD. That is when life is really over.
You see all these tombstones and many of them have wasted potential.
There are paintings that were never painted.
There are videos that were never created. Movies that were never made, novels that were never written, music that was never produced, architecture that was never built and so much more.
WHY?
Because they didn’t use the time that had to go ahead and paint that picture, write that poem or screen play. That didn’t start that business or that charity. That didn’t run that marathon or write that great English Novel because of stupid excuses like you’re giving here.

You have two choices.

1.) Go ahead and create a Tombstone that says “Bryony – Paperlilies” She was a creative girl who could have created super-awesome things that people would have loved and really enjoyed, but she decided not to.

2.) Go ahead and create something. It doesn’t have to be perfect. It just has to be created.

I'm afraid you're already making choice # 1.

Time Limit: Prove us wrong. You’ve got 24 hours starting from right now to do something creative and post it. It could be a series of photos. IT could be a painting. It could be a new Youtube movie. It can be anything as long as it is posted in 24 hours.

Your Creativity Coach,

Danny Pettry
Award-Winning Creativity Coach.

rAm said...

"Use what talent you possess: the woods would be very silent if no birds sang except those that sang best." -Henry Van Dyke

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vanilla.influx said...

stop being in the 'i need to make a video that appeals to people' mode(be it arty/funny/original) and just continue doing those random videos with random shit that you make for yourself and happen to upload. those may not be the most viewed/funniest/well received but those are the ones with most artistic value.
if your ideas are logistically improbable (need too many people/special effects/time/money) then either downsize or put on pause till later.
good luck

Honey said...

The thing is also, is that if you set out to do something or are doing some type of work - and you see others who you think are better than you, you don't know that other ppl might see you as better and more beneficial and friendlier or whatever. Hope you understand what I'm saying, I'm not very articulate, but I think you know.

Also, as there are some ppl who you might think as ugly, but others see them as beautiful.

Everyone has their own perceptions.

Cheer up, many ppl like you, look at all your views and subscribers.

You're always gonna be special for someone.

smallreddog said...

No its no longer august, nearly october in it ;)

smallreddog said...

nope

BadAlbert said...

This has partly inspired my latest video currently leaping up the pipes like a wayward salmon, which I'm sure is the most exciting news you have recieved in some time!

causaldomino said...

I feel exactly the same, all the time. There's something you should try though imho... You should get inspiration only from TRUE ART, only from the bestest artists in the world, and don't give a crap about talented competitors (such as that guy). For instance, I love writing, and I feel just like I want to give up every time I find something very good in bookstores written by young and talented writers. On the other hand, I avidly read stuff from great writers like Raymond Carver, trying to learn everything I can from them.
To sum it up, you should bother about - and respect, and get inspiration from - experienced masters (true artists) because you can learn from then, A LOT. However, you shouldn't give a crap about your very talented competitors, because this would make you think that you CREATE ART to compete with them, when the real reason why you want to create is because... you love it!

cole said...

I am an INTP and love your videos

Recently I was having a drink at a hotel bar and this woman I don't know just starts yelling at me saying I remind her of her ex and that "she didn't have enough tissues for my issues".

All I could think about was was the brand and absorption rate of her tissues....

-true story

Abd El-Rahman said...

You are judging yourself too early.

Best leads to best. They are the best 'cause they have done their best. You haven't.

Start comparing yourself to others who are done doing their best ONLY when you, too, are done doing yours. Otherwise, it's not fair.

Abd El-Rahman El-Naggar

KA-MAN said...

hi Paperlilies:)

you are right,sometimes i feel inspired by seeing others do well in their fields of interest and i tried to be as good as them,but when I fail to do better, it just makes me feel frustrated.

Even so,I kno my strength and weakness after trying.
I bet you could learn something after you have tried hard in something.
chin up!:)

Shyaporn said...

I know how you feel Bry. I find that I have to get to these really dark, low, rock bottom places before I hit a tipping point of self-loathing that forces me to just do something, to get up and make something.

Just know that, in my opinion, your talent is just as vibrant and valid as anything you're watching. Just keep exercising that creative muscle and it will just get stronger and better. Granted this is something I only do myself sporadically, but I think there's something there.

Aeneias said...

This reminds of a classic episode of the Simpsons, Homer and the Bat -

'Bart: You make me sick, Homer. You're the one who told me I could do anything if I just put my mind to it!

Homer: Well, now that you're a little bit older, I can tell you that's a crock! No matter how good you are at something, there's always about a million people better than you.

Bart: Gotcha. Can't win, don't try.'

I am completely neutral in this argument. Depression is no more a bad thing than joy.

Marion Delgado said...

You have my favorite videos so far - certainly not ALL of them but the ones that are good tend to be great. I would put you just ahead of Brotherhood 2.0 and quite a bit better than Ze Frank's show and Rocketboom with Amanda Cogdon. If that helps?

Plus, I showed the whole Sarcasm series to probably a dozen people and they all laughed frantically and said you were brilliant.